Healing the Throat Chakra by Asking for Support

The Wounds We Haven’t Healed

I am a firm believer that the wounds we haven’t healed as a child come back to us in familiar disguises as adults so we could have the opportunity to heal them.

And that is what was just mirrored to me these past couple of weeks.

When I was a child, my father left and my mother was incapable of taking care of her children due to her mental health condition. Though, my sister and i were welcomed in the arms of my aunt and uncle to take us as guardianship - i still couldn’t help but feel like an orphan that didn’t belong. Up until i was old enough to leave for college, there was a lingering felt sense that me being alive and needing support, was more of a burden than a desire. 

This fear taught me to play the role of the “perfect, independent child.” 

This needing to be perfect and not being a burden left me with an imbalance in my throat chakra where I learned to suppress my voice and my needs as a coping mechanism. I grew up really owning my independent nature. Any moments of needing to rely on someone came up, I was overcome with a discomfort that i couldn’t bear facing.

A couple of weeks ago, I had to leave a new & unsafe home environment that mirrored the same chaos I had endured as a young girl. The feeling of being “homeless” washed over me and I was in that familiar fear and angst of being an “orphan” again. 

My partner was more than willing to open his home to me, but I was deathly afraid of burdening him and his life just like i had experienced when I was a little girl.

And so here I am - back in a similar position and receiving the chance to heal this old wounded part of me. I could sit here and complain about the circumstances. And yet, I choose to cry, feel and embrace this experience as well as find gratitude for the healing that it is currently bringing me.

The Universe grant me a beautiful gift of learning how to receive support and re-write the subconscious narrative that me being alive and needing support = me being a burden and unloved.

As I was expressing this to my partner last night, my throat started to constrict as i realized i was projecting an old story onto a new experience. i did everything in my power to dodge burdening him - and yet, i had to rely on his support while i was ill with no place to go. i needed to discover the discomfort and pain inside of me so i could release it.

Let this be a reminder to you that you belong here. you have value. you deserve to express your truth and your needs. It is okay to receive love and support when you need it.

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